I am trying to figure out how to make some more money. Or how to make more by doing what I love. I want to make more. I am going to make more. I know how to make more. I have to be patient. I have my ways and I know what I have to do.
There is a lot that is still to be done. I know I can help people. Anyone can help people. I don’t know what you are thinking but there is a way to get done what you need to get done. If you want something you will find a way to get it.
I was feeling a bit off today. I was feeling down for some reason. I think it is because what I am doing right now is maybe stressing me out. I don’t know. I know I have to eat cheap and change my lifestyle. But I don’t think that is the issue. I think more of the issue it that I feel alone in my current relationship. I know this might be bad for me to say since I haven’t talked to her about it yet but I feel like we don’t have the same connection. I need the lust in my relationship.
Without it there isn’t the same deep connection. When lust is involved, I think you get to see the person from a different light. A light that can only be seen in the peak of orgasm. I know this might sound crazy but I think it’s true.
I think a good relationship needs two things to work, good sex and good communication. Without both of them I don’t think it will last. I think there has to be an understanding of what the other person needs to be able to feel loved and cared for.
I am going to have to make a change. This is and can be scary. But it seems to be better to put it all out on the field now than to wait and see what happens. I didn’t like feeling alone and feeling like what I need is not getting met. I need the physical as much as the emotional in a relationship.
I need a girl who will talk and talk. I don’t have to ask her a question for her to want to talk. I want her to want to tell me about what is going on in her daily life. I like listening. I enjoy hearing others people’s stories. This is where I am best. I am great at listening. I do however, still have a long way to go with my listening. I have to know how to stay quiet and when to speak. I am getting better at it thought.
Do I wait? Do I do it now? I think the best thing to do would be to talk about it. This way I can see where we both stand. I don’t want a kid and I want to have sex without a condom. I have to find a happy balance between the both of them. I need sex daily. If not 4–6 times a week. It seems to make me stronger. More willing to succeed and make a transformation in my life. I know this might sound crazy but it is the truth. I love sex more then I originally thought possible. I need sex to help me thought some tough times. Sex is by far one of the best things to do to at any time, there is never a bad time to have sex.
I think this might have been why I was feeling down. I don’t think I have been having my needs met in the way that I need to them be met. That is nothing on her part, that is all on me. I am the one who is not talking about it. I am the one who is journaling about it right now.
I can’t let my emotions control my mood. I must witness them and let them pass.
On other thing that might have caused me to feel down was going in to work. I don’t like how I have to bet there for 9 hours to get paid. Let me work when I have work. Otherwise, let me go home. I know this can’t be done. This is one of my whys for journaling and having my IG page. They will help me reach finical freedom so I can leave my job and decide how I spend my days. All I have to do to do this is provide a lot of value to lots of people.
It doesn’t have to be that many people. This is why I am doing my best to give way my best stuff because how cool would it be if I was to get paid for working out, practicing yoga and meditating. This would be the single best thing. I know I can do it. All I have to do is figure out what will make my page unique.
Off topic: I got sunburnt on my feet yesterday and my left one swelled up bad. But I think I will be good to do hot yoga since it was my fault in the first place for getting sunburnt. I will do what I can. I think it was worse when I burnt my back. Yeah, I’ll be good.
Anyway, I have to go get what I want. It is not going to come to me. It is on me to put in the work to make a living doing what I do daily. One of the reason I think this is taking me a bit longer is because my friends do not do social all the time. Maybe I can elaborate to them on ways how social can make them more money. But talk is cheap.
I make money and show them hey this is what I am getting everything day from my phone. People all over the world are giving me $200 a day to learn how to do yoga and bodybuilding together to have the body of their dreams. This is how I am finically free. There are also people giving me a $100 a day for me to help them with their meditations.
When I have this then they might be like wow this is good money right now. This is only a start. It can and will only grow from her. There is no shortage of money in this world. All we have to do is find a way to get attention so the money will come to us. This is the simple rule of life.
How to get attention? How to keep attention? How to help other? How to provide value? How to help people get through their day? How to help people ride themselves of anxiety? How do you help them? How to get people in to the gym? How to make money online? How to find love? How to keep it original and steal at the same time? What is the best way to communicate your message? What do you want? Why do you want it? How will you get it? Who has it? Where is it?
Keep going and be a witness and watch what happens. See what comes with change. See what comes when you are honest. See the people you meet. See the stories you hear. See the love you acquire. Life is wonderful, so keep going not matter what stands in your way. Don’t lose hope. It will all work out.