Why is it challenging to do what we say we are going to do? Why does it take us a lot of effort to do what we know we should do? Why don’t we do what we know is best for ourselves?
My legs have been feeling funny the past few days, not sure what it is from. I have a feeling like it might be because of my diet and maybe I am not getting enough protein. Or my hips are truly opening up and my legs are feeling it. Or it could be because I went kind of easy on my leg work out on Tuesday. I will continue to notice it and if I notice anything change I will witness it.
I am struggling to write this morning. I don’t know what it is but my fingers don’t want to glide over the keyboard like they will when I know what I am going to talk about.
I had a dream last night or this morning while my alarm was going off that I found pretty funny. It was something like “0 = muscle” for some reason I thought that was a good one. It was on a piece of paper and got me right out of bed. Yeah, I jumped out of bed this morning. I was not expecting to jump out of bed but I did. I guess I was looking forward to what I have to do today. Or what I get to work on.
I get worried or stop myself from getting an erection because I feel like everyone will stare. When I get one it is not easy to hide. Maybe I don’t hide it. I want to get them more and more but I am worried everyone will see. Maybe this involves a change in the type of underwear I wear. Maybe I will switch it up. I guess I could. This way when I get one it will be under better control.
I think I also had a dream about a fly or me trying to kill a horse fly, the ones that bit. I didn’t end up killing it then the whole time I was doing my best to swat away anything that landed on me. I know it doesn’t hurt getting bit by a fly but I didn’t want to.
I know none of this may make since to anyone but me but I don’t care. These journals are for me to start my day off on a positive clear minded boat. If people read them cool. If not, I don’t really care. These are more for me. I could go back to saving them for me but I figured maybe someone out there could see how I journal every day and could start doing it themselves. Like journaling doesn’t have to make since. It can jump around from idea to idea. There doesn’t have to be order to it. I do my best to write it in some order.
But there will be days when I don’t have must to write about. Kind of like this morning. I don’t have much to say. I have a few things I want to do this morning but other than that there is not much for me to say. Yes, it is 4:24 A.M. When I am writing this.
Why do I get up so early?
I see what other successful people do in the morning and I figure if it works for them then it might for me. I understand causation does not equal correlation but it is still worth a shot. I know this better than anyone. I will still work towards it because the successful do leave clues.
Why haven’t I made any money?
I haven’t made enough offers. I keep telling myself and others what I am going to do and this seems to fill my ego which leads to me not doing anything. This time I am going to do my best to do something different. I am going to do my best to create something that will have an impact and I won’t tell anyone about it until it is done and live.
I have also been lazy. I didn’t know what to sell. How much to spend on marketing. How to get true fan. What problem I was solving. Who I was talking to. What I could provide others with. I am still figure it out but I am figuring it out along the way. I think this is one the best ways to see what need to be made and doing research.
Oh this is one other reason. I hate doing research. I want to create it and make money. But as Picasso said, “Good Artist copy. Great artist steal.” I finally understand what the guy meant.
We grow up in school being told to create our own work, don’t plagiarize, write it in your own words but the thing about this is that nothing is original. Sure, we might have a new thought but maybe someone else has already had this thought. Everything is more or less a remix or a twist on what has already been done before.
Why do extra work when someone has already done it for you? I am not saying to copy others word for word. No. What I am saying is see what’s working for someone else and innovate upon it. Use what has worked for them for you. It is simple and easy to do. Find what someone else is doing and put your brand on it.
I have to poo. One of the issues with drinking coffee in the morning is it gets the stomach moving. Starts your digestive system right up. Oh and I am not going to the gym this morning. Then why wake up at 4:00 A.M.? Like I said I have a few things I want to do before I get distracted by the day.
I have been lazy the past few days. I thought it was because of someone. But it wasn’t. It has been on me and what I have been doing when I come home.
When I was going to the gym in the afternoon I would go right after work or I would come home for an hour to eat then go to the gym, so this got my ass up off the couch. But now with me going to the gym in the morning when I get off of work, I eat then go right to the couch and watch YouTube videos. Not a smart idea.
What I should be doing is coming over to my chair and turning on my computer. If I am still watching some sort of YouTube video while doing this, that’s cool, I don’t mind. But by doing this I won’t fall asleep and feel like I have nothing to do.
From sitting on the couch it has kind of bummed me out. It has made me feel like I am doing nothing. It is pushing myself back. It is making it much harder for me to create an online business. I am like oh I would rather sleep then work.
Create something and experiment from there.