So, as of today that I wrote this, one of my favourite band, Moonchild, just release a new single titled “Money” from their upcoming LP album “Little Ghost”. The song was written by the core member of the band Amber Navran, Andris Mattson, and Max Bryk.
I’ve known this band since 2016, the first tune that I listened to was “Nobody” with their breathtaking videos. They visited and played in Java Jazz Music Festival 2019, but sadly I can’t come. Always love the way Amber sings which I think makes this band standout. Her voice is so soothing and always calms me somehow.
“You’ve got the heart, the love, the drive, busy knocking at the door, but you’ve got the key”.
A simple line on the song that encourage me to start writing this — as I’m not a writer and never felt like I can write things — and just made me think about what’s money had to do with my current state.
I had a job, I had the four elements stated on the line, but never feel that happy. In other way I think it’s back to the key, isn’t it? On which door you want to open, right? No. Not really. At least that’s what I’ve experienced. I’m the type of person that if I don’t want to do something, I won’t do it. Having the decision to transition from freelancing to working in a company led me to a more confusing ground. Yes financially I’m save, at the moment, but there are other factors we need to talk about like inexperience coworkers, stuff you go through during your commute, what food you’ll eat for lunch, what time you want to go home, etc.
“Who told you that you feel you’re ready? Or that you should in need to ask for help? I understand your load is heavy, but you got to stop lying to yourself”
This line on the second verse just keep pouncing on my head. How come I made a choice to work in a certain position or job line — which I choose carefully and asked myself really hard before applying — isn’t actually the life I’m currently enjoying? Many of us I believe is going through this stages in their life, but I think in the end any kind of reasons behind what we do in live should came from all aspect of our conciousness. Do research on yourself, collect even a deeper meaning about yourself. I’m not saying other people’s opinion didn’t matter, but, you have the power of managing the files in your brain.
Speaking of getting my mind fresh again to face the week, I focus it to music. I play, do cover, make cover videos on IG, making beats, or find a freelance work again just to get my skill set back on track since I’m dying knowing the fact that I can’t optimize my skillset in work. Here’s a piece of Money by Moonchild :